Thursday, June 10, 2004
Haix i don't know what are my feelingz now.. just write down today what i did at home lorx.. :S
Today woke up by victor's call.. 11pm le..then i don't feel like going to the lit seminar liaox.. i called shuzhen ask her got go anot.. she say don't have so i hang up le.. then continue go sleep.. :
Sianz wondering today's lit seminar the professor ask the students do what things.. then i switched on com.. played gunbound cuz nothing to do mahx.. ate breakfast.. no appetite.. then time flies very fast.. watched wan quan yu le.. they learning and dancing elva's song.. =D
Then ate titbits.. chatted and played with jian hui they all gunbound lo.. then sian liao watch tv.. later on.. went into a gunbound's room.. aduka room.. then played in there for hours cuz our team kept on winning.. inside also got vincent.. then earn quite alot of money in there but don't know want to buy what avartar.. maybe wait for the avartar event finished then buy lorx.. i think it will then have many new avartars ba.. =)
Then had dinner at 9 something.. going to ten le.. watched pao ba nan ren a while.. at 10 continued on my computer games.. browse through people's journal.. then saw one.. haix.. make me so heart broken.. To think that this event happen last year and they still think its me.. i really very disappointed.. and also today not i ask shuzhen not to go de is she already don't want to go then another person thought i asked her not to go de.. :(
Then i hesitate a while.. don't know want to open up conversation window ask her isit still belive that i am the one who took her hp last year? i really didn't.. really didn't and i can swear.. swear as all i could care.. i really didn't.. why don't you believe me... and trufully i still treat her as my very bestest friend but she dun believe me.. she scolded me bitch or something else i never angry with her.. cuz i know her very long liao.. everytime she angry she will be out of her mind de.. then everything she don't intend to say she also will say out de.. i sometimes also like that ma.. haix.. i am very very very sad.. trust .. imagine your very best friend distrust you.. how will you feel.. extreme sad right.. plus its already 3 yrs liaox.. okay larx.. even if i were her.. i put my hp in my friends locker.. then later it was lost.. i will suspect its my friend.. but i already say many times le.. i din i din.. i really didn't.. plus i don't need a hp.. i got one myself.. and will i be the type that my best friend trust me to put her hp into my locker but i took it?? will i be so stupid?? and do i need the money ?? ='[
Are we friends or are we not.. u told me once but i forgot.. trust is the most important thing between friends.. i can understand her feelings when her hp lost.. cuz i also lose my precious things before.. no matter how much tears i've shed.. she thinks[maybe ba] its me.. why? i still remember many things we've done.. but i think she forget le ba.. and maybe she hates me now and forever.. and i can swear i never even hate her a bit.. ask eileen.. because i don't like to tell people what problems except for her.. The recipe of friendship: 1 cup of sharing & caring .2 cups of trusting..3 cups of forgiveness & hugs. Mix all of these together to make friends 4ever.. haix why always like that de.. every one else quarrel they after a few days or hours okay liao.. but always is between me and manrong.. we will be like quarreling forever.. or for very long.. and then.. will have a scar in our friendship.. why like that? isit because maybe i don't understand her feelings??i also don't know.. but i only know that we two very stubborn gurlz.. why cannot world peace.. these few days back horx.. like watching movie or what.. still remember that time watch till midnight then rush for last mrt and lrt train.. don't know she still remember anot.. then that time very fun.. =]
Hmm.. don't wish to quarrel any further le.. no use.. in the end both parties hurt for nothing.. yesterday people ask why we two quarrel.. i also don't know how to answer because i don't know why we quarrel.. haix.. then 1 min ago i shouted at my father..cuz he saw my eyes red red then he kept asking.. then i very fan so shouted at him.."nothing la!" nevery nei jiu that i shout at him.. i think he is hurt ba.. tomorrow i go say sorry to him ba.. :[
That's all for now.. today very very sad byebye.. =[=[
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